Tuesday, March 29, 2011
I still believe
Friday, March 25, 2011
wished
I looked in the sky and there I saw a star shining so blight above , I closed my eyes and wished upon a star that I would find true love.
Someone who needed me , someone to share my life , For a love that would be true. I would wait for ever . So no matter how long it may be . I will be waiting...
Someone who needed me , someone to share my life , For a love that would be true. I would wait for ever . So no matter how long it may be . I will be waiting...
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
22/3/2011
Is late d... i'm so tired right now... =) but nevermind la... all i can do for u now is that only... I'll never have anychance to do something for u... all i can do is that... maybe not more i can do for u anymore... =) all the best...
Thursday, March 17, 2011
3 / 17 / 2011
Now days Raining everyday... kinda cold... mood also will make people fall asleep... make me feel lazy to wake too... Today actually i very very lazy... actually i wanna phone my coach to tell him i wanna rest for today morning... but at last i didn't do... Is because i cannot lazy anymore... This maybe is my last year of wushu. I can't accept myself to being so lazy... Since from this year start i being hard working for so long... can't cause of lazy everything gone... i don't want... That why i wake up myself and go training with the mood of enjoy... =) I miss penang... But i'll not so early back... maybe june only will back to penang d... I really worry about my future... I don't want to be hard in the future and have a family and give them to be hard together with me... i don't want that... sometime worry is good for me... but think too much is not good for me too... =) anyway i'll not lazy anymore...Jia you okay ? I'm not alone... My family always behind me and support me always i knew that... I promise i'll never give up... =)
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Friday, March 11, 2011
Raining in the morning
Today woke up at 6.30am... prepare everything walk down to the gym... Today fitness test >.< Do everything done around 10something... kinda tired ... aish... Suddenly feel wanna update my blog... I'll never view you le... =) the last thing i wanna let you know... take care la... I'll never miss you ever anymore... to you... but not you... =)
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Love
"Two souls With But A Single Thought ,
Two hearts that beat as one."
~ Kevan
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Saturday, March 5, 2011
I'll learn
thanks for telling me so many thing... i'll learn everything... you care me i understand... =) i'm not sad... i just listen... if my wrong i'll just quite and listen... i'll learn...
Thursday, March 3, 2011
last decision iphone 4
i choose that is because iphone5 too big for me d... white colour also >< i'm not good at caring something white colour... so i choose iphone4 ... =) and should i jailbreak ma ? hmmm anyway... iphone4... =)
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
haih...
Will i go for the last year ? Xmission... kevan will u give up so easy ? haih... suan le ba... salary least then least la... last and the best! everyone try your best not just try... must do!!!
Appreciate...
Now days one by one just leave us like that... Accident , sick and everything come with suddenly... If you still have the chance to do the thing that you want... please do and never wait until the time reach you want to do... life is short... appreciate every moment... the most important is You happy everything not a problem... =) i do everything i'll think before i do... =) Everyone remember... don't waste your time do nothing... =) take care ~
why...
why i still not dare to tell ? haih... izit everything i promise is just said only ma ? Kevan you are not a guy... really... that the right that you said to me... your 1st slap is remind me not to so easy give up... your 2rd is just to remind me live peacefully... and the last slap is because you do love me than you do that... And the scar on my hand is forever stay in my left hand side , to remind you that i feel so sorry and waste your time be with me... i'm very stubborn i knew that... maybe is because i feel is right... and everything will be okay... is because that i still live so peacefully for u... 
i quit is because i care about my future... that why i work hard for it... if time can take me back to the 1st time we knew each other i'm sure i'll treat you the most ever love i did... i have gone my this chance ever... i feel very regret do everything hurt you... even now i don't need any love and everything... is because this is the deepest hurt that i ever feel in love... i'll work hard to earn money... i'll do what should do only... i'm not childish... maybe i think alot of thing... hmmm... but is okay... what the future will goings.... everything is create by god... all i can do for you is pray for u... i still when to church... i pray... for me , my family and you... i don't why i'm still like that... i should hate what you done to me... but i didn't... Is because hate a person is more hard then love a person... truly from heart... you're still there... =) Don't plan for anything... S.I.M.P.L.E is all i want... live simple... everything simple... =) that why i wrote i love simple but not complicated... I won't cry anymore... even how hard d thing i face , i'll =) like that face... stay =) forever ...
I'm not a failure... what i want i just said it out... at least i try... and i know the result... i'll never keep inside my heart and wait... nothing will drop for you... just as this world no free meal for you... =)
Special = To the little shy 1... i got care you before... hope u will leave peacefully too..
( R.I.P ) love you always... you'll meet the one leave you since last year... Happy ending ya~
1. Good Girl Go Bad - Cobra Starship & Leighton Meester
I'm not a failure... what i want i just said it out... at least i try... and i know the result... i'll never keep inside my heart and wait... nothing will drop for you... just as this world no free meal for you... =)
Special = To the little shy 1... i got care you before... hope u will leave peacefully too..
( R.I.P ) love you always... you'll meet the one leave you since last year... Happy ending ya~
1. Good Girl Go Bad - Cobra Starship & Leighton Meester
MARRIAGE
When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.
Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.
She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.
When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.
She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.
I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.
My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outsidethe door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.
On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.
Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.
Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.
But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.
I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.
She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.
Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.
At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.
That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....
The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!
If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.
If you do, you just might save a marriage.
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.
Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic calmly.
She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why?
I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn't love her anymore. I just pitied her!
With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company.
She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.
The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane.
When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.
In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.
This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.
She requested that every day for the month's duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request.
I told Jane about my wife's divorce conditions. . She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.
My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outsidethe door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office.
On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her.
On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me.
On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger.
She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.
Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.
Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day.
But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life lacked intimacy.
I drove to office.... jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore.
She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.
Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away.
At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.
That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I run up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed - dead.
My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was so busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from the whatever negative reaction from our son, in case we push thru with the divorce.-- At least, in the eyes of our son--- I'm a loving husband....
The small details of your lives are what really matter in a relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse's friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. Do have a real happy marriage!
If you don't share this, nothing will happen to you.
If you do, you just might save a marriage.
Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Don't worry
Today raining so heavy >.< make me fall... ishh... pain nia... I'm okay right now =) without anyone i'm always okay =)Hope everyone too ya =)
1. I Wont't cry - Yummy
1. I Wont't cry - Yummy
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