why...

why i still not dare to tell ? haih... izit everything i promise is just said only ma ? Kevan you are not a guy... really... that the right that you said to me... your 1st slap is remind me not to so easy give up... your 2rd is just to remind me live peacefully... and the last slap is because you do love me than you do that... And the scar on my hand is forever stay in my left hand side , to remind you that i feel so sorry and waste your time be with me... i'm very stubborn i knew that... maybe is because i feel is right... and everything will be okay... is because that i still live so peacefully for u...

i quit is because i care about my future... that why i work hard for it... if time can take me back to the 1st time we knew each other i'm sure i'll treat you the most ever love i did... i have gone my this chance ever... i feel very regret do everything hurt you... even now i don't need any love and everything... is because this is the deepest hurt that i ever feel in love... i'll work hard to earn money... i'll do what should do only... i'm not childish... maybe i think alot of thing... hmmm... but is okay... what the future will goings.... everything is create by god... all i can do for you is pray for u... i still when to church... i pray... for me , my family and you... i don't why i'm still like that... i should hate what you done to me... but i didn't... Is because hate a person is more hard then love a person... truly from heart... you're still there... =) Don't plan for anything... S.I.M.P.L.E is all i want... live simple... everything simple... =) that why i wrote i love simple but not complicated... I won't cry anymore... even how hard d thing i face , i'll =) like that face... stay =) forever ...

I'm not a failure... what i want i just said it out... at least i try... and i know the result... i'll never keep inside my heart and wait... nothing will drop for you... just as this world no free meal for you... =)

Special = To the little shy 1... i got care you before... hope u will leave peacefully too..
( R.I.P ) love you always... you'll meet the one leave you since last year... Happy ending ya~

1. Good Girl Go Bad - Cobra Starship & Leighton Meester