my feeling

I don't know why am i write today...
I feel so sad right now...
maybe it is time to let go my wushu ...
I do miss but i can't hold it forever i know , one day i also have to let go ..
This is the first time i write my blog until my tears drop...
Why am i drop my tears.... ?
Maybe i played too long and i started to miss this life even i haven't quit .
I always ask myself why i play wushu until so long...
izit because of my friend that why I'm still playing...
The real reason is i can't let go ...
i trained already 12 years... I spent 12 years for wushu...
End up what i get ? the life of athlete will anyone understand ?
I also wish to enjoy life with my friend work play and hangout together .
But all i have is to see and listen what they talk and they mention about .
my life is just always stay in the room or training ...
Do anyone really understand the feeling ...
I don't think so ... even coach also doesn't understand my feeling because they are just wanna protect the place they have , they never think the life how we athlete were really are ...

E.M.O

I wonder when i'm emo who will be there for me....
Everything people just find me to help them , but for me who i'll also help them .
But how if when I'm emo ?
After the world games that i saw alot of pro opponent  that i have to face
sigh .... I have to work harder then... maybe this is my last year or not... mostly will be...
anyway what i can do is keep on walk until the place and the time reach...
good luck to myself....

After Indonesia ~

Finally Islamic games have ended and result i got is a Gold and a bronze ^_^ mission accomplished .

After that i went back to Penang for some holiday and take a rest for 4 days .
The 4 days in Penang I've done nothing feel like wasting my time in Penang but at last i accompany my parent and have sometime with them :) at least i back won't feel waste time done nothing :)

And before back Zi wan and her family meet up with me and sent me to airport , really need to thanks them sent me back or else rain so heavy I also don't know how to go there...

This is the picture that she take and edited before i leave Penang...

and she posted and wrote something for me... 

" know him since i standard 5,we training,we play,we laugh,we crazy together happily,he keep scolded me fat but i know you don't really meant it xD thanks for being my senior,concern me and teach me a lot of things, i learned, good luck in your future xD lets plan for next outing "

All i can say that is thanks for everything and let me be your senior and teach you :) 

And now finally back to training at Bukit jalil ,

and now started to train performance for coming world games well held at Malaysia .

Sigh....

I need to perform when my birthday >.<

can't celebrate already .

Just wondering why everything my birthday sure will have something to do ,

Last last year have to go for camp =.=

and last year have class and now this year have to performance .....

what a sad case.... T.T 

After performance still have to prepare for Sea games .

Add oil to myself >.< 

This is the post i update this time ... 

Any news again I'll update my blog... 

See ya ~ 

Day at Indonesia !

Finally I've reached Indonesia .
And today is the first day at Indonesia .
Actually i feel abit scare to face some of new opponent ,
But now i don't feel scare or what anymore...
because i need to enjoy the game not to put the pressure for myself , I need to share what I've and perform to let everyone see (: I'll think positive and I'll try my best to do the best :)
wait for my good news ya :)

As a friend (:

A song for you
Just a wish from me :)


Good luck !

Just like before what I've said (=
now you may believe what I've said right ?
I feel he might better then me lot (=
Jia you ...

不哭了

聽著聽著又哭了
朋友口中聽說你和她的
窗外天空失眠了
星星還孤單的閃著
原來我最執著的
其實你從來都不在乎的
放開手天突然亮了
不哭了 不哭了
現在我一個人不哭了
看著你最愛看的電影哼著你的歌
不苦了 不苦了
何必為不值得而哭呢
謝謝你 讓我明白失去你 才會快樂
聽著聽著又哭了
朋友口中聽說你和她的
窗外天空失眠了
星星還孤單的閃著
原來我最執著的
其實你從來都不在乎的
放開手天突然亮了
不哭了 不哭了
現在我一個人不哭了
看著你最愛看的電影哼著你的歌
不苦了 不苦了
何必為不值得而哭呢
謝謝你 讓我明白失去你 才會快樂
哭過的人才會懂愛沒有滿分
微笑的人總會有幸福的可能
不哭了 不哭了
現在我一個人不哭了
看著你最愛看的電影哼著你的歌
不苦了 不苦了
何必為不值得而哭呢
謝謝你 讓我明白失去你 才會快樂
不苦了 不苦了
何必為不值得而哭呢
謝謝你 讓我明白沒有你 我很快樂

so far update

so far updated

this some of the picture that after my test and my first time with red wushu cloth :)

and soon will be take part at Islamic games at Indonesia... 

the date 25/09/2013

and a bad news... I'm sicked

hope it will recover soon...

my test Nan quan  [ 9.68 ] I'm in red and Nan gun [9.70] I'm in black :) 

我不知己

I've saw your updated ... Just treat me as a stranger i'll be fine and I'll wish you.... as long as what i do i feel is worth for you to have your happiness everything will be enough ... good luck 

my story :)

hello... long time never update my blog already ...
I'm fine here ... how about everyone who still viewing my blog ... ?
just a little bit update today... ^_^
After selection result out...
seriously I felt disappointed about the result , but at least I have tried my best to perform
so never mind ^_^ Because I've 2 more tournament have to face that will held at Indonesia and Myanmar :)
what tournament for me , I'll do the best for it :)

This photo i took on the day watch concert with my friends at bukit jalil ^_^
Is MY FM 15 anniversary ... Alot of artist were there on that day and I watched with someone special ...
Skip Skip Skip....

 This the course now I'm taking ... how was it and how nice is it ?
one word " BORED "
I was slept for some lesson... because it all came out with Chinese word and I don't know what it write and talked . I don't want to take this course but i have to... sigh ...

This is the first day of the course finished .

and we went to eat dinner together .

 After late night i went with my friend to watched car show at bukit jalil there and I saw this awesome car and i love it very very muccccccccccccccccccccchhhhhhhhhhhh !!!
so i decided  to take picture with this car and asked my friend to help me snap this picture ^.^
How it look ? i feel nice... i mean the car not me anyway .... Heeehee.....

And the second day of the course after we finished , We went to Starbucks for mocha and some green tea ... hahha... anyway tomorrow will be our exam for coaching level 1 ^.^ hope everything going well and after the course finish , Our training will continue and suffer and tiring day will coming soon add oil ba :)
 And i'll update a photo that took since that day . world game photo shooting if you wanna see you may see on my blog cover :) add oil and believe everything and follow what you really want .
I'll always wish you and stay happy

June 26

Haze all around make me feel so dizzy and sick ,

The place i used to training have to change for 2 weeks 

And how uncomfortable when at outsider training .

Soon will have a selection  , Hope will being choose to go for the game that I wanna go . 

Anyway All to best to myself ^_^ 

Sometime I used to Emo but I'll try to control myself :)

 

Just a update

It being so long I've no time to update my blog spot .
Just some update to share something about me ,
I'm very busy this year , many thing it happen so suddenly ,
I started to feel so tired etc : Training , class , even wanna go for body massage also don't have sometime for me .
Tournament delay but selection coming soon and our program getting worst and tired even just a evening training everyone also worry about what coach will give us train today .
Not only me tired and everyone also do .
But there will be no one quit and we will try hard for it .
even is my last year of training i'll push myself for this last year training and leave with no regret :)
Good luck to me and everyone who facing any hard thing for this year . remember this word " Never scare to lose , Just scare you never try " . ^^

April updated

9:26 PM 4/2/2013



Finally i back from china , I went there for a month ,
The life's at there is very cold , sometime raining somemore ,
have being long time ago i never update my blog ,
I think since chinese new year until today .
That's reason why i update today . I just wanna write down how i pass my day .
hmmm , My chinese new year this year pass like nothing , because my both sister not coming
back home and my brother back on the first day of chinese new year .
Maybe it because of my holiday is too early that why i'm bored enough to stay in my house .
My parent went out everyday , my friend all worked , after they worked already late enough .
But even they have free time , they will also rather find their gf .
Is okay i don't mind and i understand , That why i rather go anywhere alone find my event for myself .


Valentines ? haiz... Don't talk about it... without any feed back , my feeling *SOB*


After few days return to the place that i live again , that mean back to the place i training all the time and day .
back around two weeks then went to china for training .
Once reached there , Our new coach have coming and lead us . I never face this tough training before .
A month follow this new coach . Is really tired enough . I know not only me feel tired all of you in my event also the same
feeling like i do , and they still can continue and never give up , so do i ?
I admit i really wanna give up , but then i recall everything that i promise myself before , end up i also just follow what the coach
give us the program . Even after this year i don't have any result also never mind , At least i try my best and never feel regret .

Coming of the day i'll continue my new planning before my first game coming that's islamic games will held at Indonesia .
Actually june is the game but end up i hear that will change the date .
Anyway i don't care i'll be prepare no matter when is it...
I'll never waste my last year of wushu in this year .
Because i maybe will quit after this year .

All the best to myself ... K[D]

I'll remember

every step that how do you all threaten me before I'll remember no matter how long... what you do on me just remember ... one day you all will regret... I'll never beg anything from anyone ... I give you my heart to understand but You all just give me a shit... is okay... fine :) Remember Don't regret ...

Tuesday ?

Finally back to normal training life again ... 

Hmmm... Just a few days training only I'm exhausted...

Nowadays I keep hesitate but end up I don't even know what am I thinking about also ,

Count down from today still have 1 more month Chinese New Year soon... 

But until now I still don't have the new year mood at all... 

The day passed is very fast , I wonder after I've stop my wushu , What will I do ?
Will my future full of hard way to go ? or my way to the future will goes very well ?
Am I right to think about this now ? hmmm I still don't know... Wish myself luck then ... :)

New year

Finally 2012 have passed ....
A new chapter of my life have started ,
Every story has an ending . but in life , every ending is a new beginning...
This year I have to work everything more hard and use more brain for my everything...
No more wasting my time and do something nonsense anymore...
A brand new me , new life and new begin have started ... keep it up for myself and my future ...
^^